masquerade

Well here I am again Pacing my room Haven't felt like this in months I've been waiting for you To show up unannounced And tear down the houses I've built Why do I even try To push you aside I've never been successful And you're the reason why My heart is pounding I'm restless You left me defenseless It's comforting some things dont change I'm trying my best But that isn't good enough He tells me to rest But I just try keeping up This image of me I can't even see in the mirror My masquerade just became clearer Well here I am again Just trying to sleep But I know that when I wake up I'll still be me Disappointment every morning When I see the same tired eyes I'm trying my best But that isn't good enough He tells me to rest But I just try keeping up This image of me I can't even see in the mirror My masquerade just became Clearer Im fighting myself I can't seem to win All the shots to my pride The spiraling inside my mind Still I come back to you all these years of vertigo You'd think I'd want to let you go, I I want things to change I'm trying my best To let them see what's underneath If I'm being honest It's taking every part of me To show them what's real If I hide any longer I'm gonna drown I'm pulling my masquerade down