Apology

If you're listening Please take this song as an apology Here's my heart, it's in my hands I don't know where else it should be Yes there's a lot of blood and veins But you can see it beat beat beat and twitch I wish the language of my mouth and my body Wouldn't betray me when There's another setback, lost track And I think I'll never speak again How can these tiny incidentals destroy a mind so easily? I feel them whisper "you don't belong here" Don't they think that I already know? A lot of time and unseen terror To take the steps I take A tidal wave of thoughts Behind every tiny movement I make Dip your toes into my still waters I swear, I swear, I swear they run deep I feel them whisper "you don't belong here" Don't they think that I already know? But I want to do great things And take to the sky I swear, even if it kills me I can't let it all pass me by I'm tired of waiting for my fear to bleed out of me I guess this awkward form is the way I'm supposed to be But maybe one day, maybe one day One day I could be something more