Not Enough

We sank into each other, longingly A kindred spirit, I know he felt it too His distant declarations serenaded me And of course I believed, 'cause what else would you do? But in flesh, cold to the touch. So I drove myself crazy looking for a sign Picking through his old words before the sentiment rots He said he'd call when it's the right time While my sleeves twisted into vicious knots And I looked straight into his coward's stare He changed tack, said he couldn't touch back Buzzing in his head or something like that I said "we all have skeletons, trust me I should know, We can shut the door long enough to let the ivy grow" long enough to let the ivy grow long enough to let the ivy grow long enough to let the ivy grow long enough to let the ivy grow His indifference shook me to my core But left the part that I still adore I wish he was stronger than letting me go But mostly I wish my hunger wouldn't starve me so But I will learn how to fast again, and sustain myself And I know this trope is as old as can be Blinded by love but kinda starting to see And I wish I could pen it poetically But my clumsy heart, god it just wants to scream "you are not enough for me" "you are not enough for me" "you are not enough for me" "you are not enough for me" And I'll hold myself to sleep Since you won't fucking do so And I'll start to pull away Save this grief for another day.