How Do I Say These Words

Early morning in my room and old friend wonders through my head How he holds me down to the floor And any time I fight to move I bite down on his dirty hands How I can still taste my disgust Now I'm stumbling roads that I've never know And the look in your eyes means you want to go Well I'm afraid to be a lover and I know it shows And every time next to you I feel the wind move through my hair How I wish I'd feel something more But I know that it's my pain the guilt that drives you far away I know that it's hard to ignore Don't you wanna know how everything will end No I don't it's not what concerns me I'll just stay here in my bed and wait till I'm just dead No I can't find reality How do I say these words