coffee and cigarettes

I've kept myself from being happy for far too long Lying to myself that I don't deserve it That I never could know love I think that it started back when I was just a kid Trying to make sense of this world we live in But as I started getting older And seeing things much clearer It felt like I could never get a grip Because all the things I thought kept me safe Turns out they never did a thing Because I've kept myself from being happy for far too long Lying to myself that I don't deserve it That I never could know love I'll take another sip of all the medicine they give Drown out the taste of my coffee and cigarettes So here's to growing older, but never getting any wiser And unknowingly causing more harm than good Try to find some grace, improve along the way And learn just what it means for me to make a better change Because all the things I thought kept me safe Turns out they never did a thing Because I've kept myself from being happy for far too long Lying to myself that I don't deserve it That I never could know love I'll take another sip of all the medicine they give Drown out the taste of my coffee and cigarettes Try to find some grace, improve along the way Because this was never what I wanted to be I've kept myself from being happy for far too long Lying to myself that I don't deserve it That I never could know love I'll take another sip of all the medicine they give Drown out the taste of my coffee and cigarettes