Cruel Time

The silence imprisons me Long road, can we ever escape your judgment Cruel time leads me further away than I ever knew Still standing by the open door I see the sun but I still don't feel it Lifted then unlifted oh I can't take this any more Never thought I'd be alive by now But I'm still here Where do I take this Always living in the shade of the past (Yeah) Shadow extends until it blocks out the sun Blisters harden, Insurmountable walls Let the claws dig in again I confess, I like the way it feels Comforts me as I let myself undone Reborn diamond From the ashes Just be a bitter taste remains of what was before Total certainty To oblivion I'd rather be lost than found but searching for Something more AAH Lifted then unlifted oh I can't fucking take this any more Set me on fire and I'll learn To love the rain I'll leave my mark like a bullet from hell Out from the dark just to burn in the light Did I really face my hand-me-down fears or did I (I) Just watch them from afar Back of my mind I watched a piece of me die All of the hurt and pain I carried around Seems to me like it's never enough A reminder For when life gets too rough