Wishes

Sitting on the hills, I'm steady thinking "am I doing right?" Don't mention my life I might flash out, it cost you a price Overthinking, worried bout the type of love I'm receiving Sitting looking at the ceiling thinking "am I fighting demons?" Therapy won't do me good, I ain't even from the hood But it's things that I can't speak on, no one get it, wish I could Wish that I could sit down, talk Wish that I could take a walk I look at my bro, know he won't fold Wish I wouldn't draw the chalk Wish that we wouldn't steady fuss Wish that I could get a hug Wish that I could feel some love I wish that it wasn't only lust But I guess that's how it go When you can only mess with hoes I think I'm going stupid, gone insane but I'll keep going on Wish I could protect my soul Bismallah, if I could smite that bitch despite the list of things that's going wrong I know I would I wish I wouldn't but it's only true, though it won't do me good Vivid memories, I miss how things were in my childhood You know just as well as I do, some things just cannot be fixed If you feel my pain then let me know 'cause we can reminisce If you offering your body you can hit the road, I need some knowledge Steady flodging, need my wishes answered, know somebody got them Know I got a lot of wishes, praying god answer 'em E and Jayan in here with me, know the bitches fans of them I need me a genie, give me three chances, I can fix myself Maybe keep my family straight, you know, give them all the wealth If I keep my family straight, did I really solve the problem? Will I really feel cherished? Dug a whole straight out the bottom I don't even want to talk about the issue, just get gas lighted Had her in that Audi, steady swerving, crashed just like a pilot Self destruction with a word, you use it wrong and then we all are dying I know a way with words, I'm really smarter than your favorite artist GMC, that's in my name, it's painted red for all the hurt inside me Back to back, it's day to day you know I'm steady steady grinding Gotta get straight to these M's I can't waste no time with them Feel like I'm the greatest, like I'm MJ, touching on the rim Don't gotta say a word, my boy lil' Jon, will stomp you in his Timbs She playing all my songs, you steady hating Don't want smoke with my men Turning up for the one time You not gangsta stop the lying You don't live a life a crime Ain't shoot nan shit up with that fye Niggas mommas crying but you want to kill, you think it's cool? 'Til they put you on the news Now you look a fool, rolling in your tomb Wish I could protect my soul Bismallah, if I could smite that bitch despite the list of things that's going wrong I know I would I wish I wouldn't but it's only true, though it won't do me good Vivid memories, I miss how things were in my childhood