Special, Nobody

I lay hollow In my bed Hands over eyelids I'll see again Big question why Do I go blind? It's not like I want to It's not like I try I've been graced by angels One time or twice I might not join them How do I fly? I just get so caught in it This beautiful mess Haven't climbed out of it Trying my best Don't you tell me This is how it's supposed to be I know I'm special I know I'm nobody