Let It Go

I love you but What a way for me to end this I served you my heart And you played like it's tennis Gave it nice incentives that would make our lives stupendous The day you try to mend us is the same you lie defensive Always making some ultimatum to solve your hating Put up walls complaining It's 'cuz I caught you and called it ain't it It's time for us to face the facts Can't chase the past or fake the laughs We'd break like glass There's nothing you could claim for the pain that remains It's insane that a change might sustain us again It rains then it pours then it drains then it's warm Then the flame is ignored back the same as before And I just can't anymore 'cuz I'm running on e You wanna try but my intuition doesn't agree You raise my anger up a hundred degrees Thunderous speech Butting heads until our hearts bled in utter defeat So much animosity the kids can't not see it It's getting harder to padlock secrets So we're packed up leaving But you won't even acknowledge that fact Listen we love you and we wish you could just take it all back but Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't Sometimes what you thought it was really wasn't You can't sit and dwell 'cuz the past never changes The only thing that lasts is the anguish My heart is laid out Got thoughts with grey clouds Without you in the picture my legs dropped and gave out Got a lot to say how am I supposed to accept That you're gone and not jump when I'm so close to the edge I'm broken and incomplete Smoking until I sleep Keep drowning in booze and haven't been sober in over weeks The hole is just way too deep to fill It's so useless I'd rather swallow a heap of pills I'm so stupid There's nothing I wouldn't do to be a family again I'm practically nothing if I'm not your man and your friend And I cannot pretend like everything will be alright I close my eyes and you're the only thing I see all night I can't breathe! I lost my job lost my dough Lost my mind lost my soul Lost control Now I'm sitting gripping a picture of us long ago Staring death in the face like he's all I know What else can there be for a wretch like me I invested in our future like it was destiny Now I'm drugged up excessively As I fade to black I love you and wish I could take it all back but Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't Sometimes what you thought it was really wasn't You can't sit and dwell 'cuz the past never changes The only thing that lasts is the anguish So let it go