To Sum It Up

I indulge in things that I probably shouldn't I go for people I know will screw me over I don't like being left on read It screws with my head I can't pay attention I don't learn my lesson I flake, sorry I'm lame I will forget your name I always push people away Then plead them to stay I don't wanna tell you Why I'm sad, just get lost You don't wanna know I drink anything to get drunk despite the taste I only pursue men who break my heart with haste I don't really feel anything I'm numb to the core I don't wanna be friends You seem like you're fake and I don't like your vibes To sum it up, I'm breaking To sum it up, I'm aching I don't wanna talk to you right now Leave and shut the door Let me cry for a while Common misconception is that I need help Realistically I'd rather be here by myself In the comfort of my home Drinking all alone My coping mechanisms are not so healthy My bank account is polar opposite wealthy I guess you can say I'm a mess When I cope with stress I don't tell people things They try to console me But I'm in too deep To sum it up, I'm breaking To sum it up, I'm aching I don't wanna talk to you right now Leave and shut the door Let me cry for a while To sum it up, I'm breaking To sum it up, I'm aching I don't wanna talk to you right now Just leave and shut the door Let me cry for a while