RAPIDS (feat. Boy2Awkwrd)

I lived, and I died Now I fight, for my life And I tried, but they laughed They stabbed me in the back And now they're done laughing But accidents happen Can someone tell me what happened? Can someone tell me what happened? I jumped in the river And drowned in the rapids I'm trying my hardest But they're always laughing This knife in my back Is a call to the action I lived, that was back then My whole life is past tense Sometimes, I sit and overthink Sometimes, I sit and over drink Sometimes, I drink and then I drive Then question how am I alive? I don't wanna lie to you There's a million other things I'd like to do But its my fate that I'm liking too I'm not dead, and that's not true I jumped in the river And drowned in the rapids I'm trying my hardest But they're always laughing This knife in my back Is a call to the action I lived, that was back then My whole life is past tense SOS my ship has gone under Just another one of my blunders But half of me wanted this to happen Up the river with no paddle Through these fucking rapids Lied to them, said I won't die by them Knife inside my back what a joke When I got mine held up right to my throat I jumped in the river And drowned in the rapids I'm trying my hardest But they're always laughing This knife in my back Is a call to the action I lived, that was back then My whole life is past tense