Spiraling Thoughts

Watching the world while it crumble down I see it all for the minute I look around And I keep calling the shots when I stand my ground Why yall be falling like trees that don't make a sound Decomposing like mycelium I be nervous when the system healing em All my bros they be floating like helium Goes to show that there's more than just feeling em I'm escaping lately disassociate I ain't got no patience not a moment late Cuz when everyone hungry they hold a plate So do not complain when you're told to wait What's the total weight on my shoulders I be Prometheus carrying boulders You can not see to this even for loners Tryna get even when evenings are colder Cuz I lost a lot and got a softer spot For the badder friends that'll never stop Till they take it all and when I make it all I got too much trust don't break my fall I - I dont wanna be stuck in the same place Just becuase I've have enough of the same faces traces of a life with a tame fate If I shoot for the stars I'ma definitely aim straight I'm so fucking sick of the shit that I'm dealing with I'm so fucking sick of the shit that I'm dealing with I'm so fucking sick of the shit that I'm dealing with I'm so fucking sick of the shit that I'm dealing with Think that I give a shit Come close you're testing it This is my testament I smoked the rest of it Just to feel relevant Wake up and I cant sleep Thinking that it can't be Someone wanna break me Take these drugs to escape into a daydream I've been smoking away all the thoughts That display all my loss Late at night In my bed when I turn and I toss Ask myself what the f*ck is the even going on I'm alone and my sanity's gone… Haven't been tame since I fucking lost my brain Another punk getting crunk slowing falling down the drain Got my pain in the game F*ck the money f*ck the fame In the end now I know that I'll never feel the same