Broken

I am dwelling all alone Sitting in my home with nowhere to go Thinking how to travel down the road That all of those around me have imposed But I control it's my life So why can't I just decide To take my script and rewrite Thought you'd help me, all you did was left me empty inside All I wanted was love, a warm, welcoming hug I just needed you to see in me who I could become Needed someone to trust when I was all broken up But you corrupted me with lust, yet I still trust you because We've been on and off for like 6 years I don't know if I could ever truly let you disappear I guess it's fear that steers me These eyes, they're tearing I don't know how to cope when I'm alone and weary, Feeling drained - obligations that I don't wanna face Maybe you could be the one to help get rid of my pain Whatcha say? Huh? Maybe you're the one that I crave Maybe you'll be more than dopamine that goes through my veins Wait I am dwelling all alone Sitting in my home with nowhere to go Thinking how to travel down the road That all of those around me have imposed But I control it's my life So why can't I just decide To take my script and rewrite Thought you'd help me, all you did was left me empty inside Never satisfied, I'm never satisfied Every time I try running back to you I'm lonely and I'm very tired I wanted you cuz sometimes I feel like no one accepts me But every time I come to you you're always waiting ready I'm unsteady, heart is heavy - it's like you were made for me Yet you've broken me with potency, gave hope then disposed of me So now how will I love How will I honour God How will I find the one when all I know is fake love Right now I'm willfully suffering Just like pills you're a drug to me Soon you must have enough of me And give up but unluckily You'll adjust to my functioning Level of lust accustomed to me Fed up but I'm struggling You're blood sucking and hungry Now I don't know what to do You're like the bug that gives me the flu I'm getting sick from you But I still consume, I'm a fool I've been manipulated, you lied just Stole my energy and time this Can't go on with me quiet I'm speaking out because I tried Mitigating your damage Ever since I made you a habit You took my pureness and gladness Swapped it out for raw sadness Hope that now you get bashed and Thrown away in a trash can Or burn until you're made ashes Porn I need the love you don't have