Labyrinth

Lying in my bed, but I can't rest with eyes wide open Ya, every problem stuck inside of me is self inflicted And I could let 'em all go in the blink of an instant All it takes is a simple, quick decision But that's difficult when shame degrades your faith toward your own existence Maybe I'm overthinking That's what I'm told by everybody that I talk to Maybe I should close my mind completely But that's not realistic, is it? I just listen, make an inference That my life could be done in with if I grimace I was told to keep an open mind but just know when to close it Now sometimes I question my discernment, have I left it open? Am I sulking in my brokenness so much so, I've imposed it On my soul without consulting the Holy Ghost I've molded all my thoughts into a ladder, woven pain into a braid Rope my lyrics thread by thread, it helps tie up my mistakes Every track is but a step to climb away, up out the maze Maybe music is the way I can escape Lying in my bed, but I can't rest with eyes wide open The room is dim and it's closing in A labyrinth is on the ceiling The room is dim, it's closing in A labyrinth is on the ceiling Can't see above the hedges, I must be lost, I haven't Found a way out yet, a map directing straight to Heaven But wait I have it's been living in my soul forever Embedded in my spirit, written on my walls, I never Took a second to consistently listen I guess my pride said I had to find my own way out of this prison But now I question the existence of this in depth labyrinth Is it even what I think it is or just my subconscious twisting What I've not implemented in my life to paint an image Or to depict the inconsistencies that I struggle with Or to illicit what I've hidden, hindering God's gift Maybe this labyrinth is just the mirror that I'm looking in And by a birds eye view it means that all my barriers will cease The walls fall down now I can see this maze was not reality Still I've been lying in my bed But I can't rest with eyes wide open The room is dim and it's closing in A labyrinth is on the ceiling Lying in my bed, but I can't rest with eyes wide open The room is dim, it's closing in But where's the labyrinth on the ceiling?