Music isn't enough...

I've addressed this in depth Can't express it unless In a way still unknown as of yet to man I need a way to express Music isn't enough (isn't enough) Abstract contraptions enacted On this mind of mine, God, what's happened? Top of mind is my own inaction Fight my pride with lies and distractions Over and over and over again Playing pretend but it's easy to hide when Surrounded by cover that so few can sense Can you sense All the lies? All the pride? Far behind the routines of life How can a guy Just live his life Aware of all of this? Am I a good man, or am I guilty? If guilty of one sin, I'm guilty of every Oh, oh I need a way to express And music isn't enough (isn't enough) Is there even a way to express it? All of the depth In my heart (in my heart) In the parts I'm afraid to accept The applause for my art's what I aim at but next I confess it is less than the crave in my chest Unlock all the chambers of my heart Unshackle the parts Of me that believe in the lies they've been feeding me Since I was little and seeking support Fighting to find love, striving to earn it Carrying weight, and hiding my burdens Running away from the hurt, I was learning It's easy to do when the people around you Are not to be trusted with even their own emotions I mean how could I pour myself out to a glass that was cracking? I understand that nobody is perfect But it would be nice if more people could manage Especially parents God, that's why I come to you asking Take all my hurt Help me to forgive, cause I'm sick of All the lies All the pride Far behind the routines of life How can a guy Just live his life Aware of all of this? Am I a good man or am I guilty? If guilty of one sin, I'm guilty of every Oh, oh I need a way to express And music isn't enough (isn't enough) Is there even a way to express it? All of the depth In my heart (in my heart) In the parts I'm afraid to accept The applause for my art's what I aim at but next I confess it is less than the crave in my chest