Anxiety

Let this fester for hours Like a zombie I lie Isolated in darkness They materialize Subtly Creeping in Vivid reflections begin Paranoia takes its toll And I can't escape its control I know that everything's in my head Most likely none of this is real I'll try to make myself believe that But it won't change how I feel I Know That I am going crazy Don't Heed a word I say I'm Not Myself when I'm like this Ruined my life again today I can hear my fears whisper "They're not really your friends" "Maybe once you meant something" "But each good thing ends" "If you would stop holding on" "One second and they would be gone" "If you have made one mistake" "That's all the excuse it would take" I know that everything's in my head Most likely none of this is real I'll try to make myself believe that But it won't change how I feel I Know That I am going crazy Don't Heed a word I say I'm Not Myself when I'm like this Ruined my life again today Don't react This is your burden to bear Believing the lies won't get you anywhere But it feels so real... (So real) I know that everything's in my head (in my head) Most likely none of this is real I'll try to make myself believe that But it won't change how I feel I Know That I am going crazy Don't Heed a word I say I'm Not Myself when I'm like this Ruined my life again today I know that I'm doing you wrong When I get convinced you don't care for me I'm sorry I don't believe in you But I cannot believe in myself I Know That I am going crazy Don't Heed a word I say I'm Not Myself when I'm like this Oh God, I wish I weren't this way