I Hurt My Own Feelings

Back in bed, fresh sheets, going out of my mind Wondering where you are, who you're with If I'm wasting all my time Time I could spending by myself Finding pleasure in the pain and getting overwhelmed By the way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name It's a risk I'd like to take I hurt my own feelings What did I expect to see? I know you're with her and you probably don't like me But I do it instinctively So I hurt my own feelings When I'm looking up your name Stare at the ceiling Try to make the thinking go away But it's getting harder to breathe I'd rather hurt my own feelings Second guess, repeat for the millionth time Is it just what I get for going on the internet to meet someone online When I get into town, baby I'll stop by Make a movie with no sound yeah We'll keep it quiet Kiss me soft and in places I can't name It's a risk I'd like to take (just take my phone away) I hurt my own feelings What did I expect to see? I know you're with her and you probably don't like me But I do it instinctively So I hurt my own feelings When I'm looking up your name Stare at the ceiling Try to make the thinking go away But it's getting harder to breathe I'd rather hurt my own feelings You wait for her to text you While I wonder where you've been It's my fault I only wanna hold your hand And I won't tell you cause it scares you to feel vulnerable And I'm attached to what I've made you Cause it's comfortable Yeah it's comfortable I hurt my own feelings What did I expect to see? I know you're with her and you probably don't like me But I do it instinctively So I hurt my own feelings When I'm looking up your name Stare at the ceiling Try to make the thinking go away But it's getting harder to breathe I'd rather hurt my own feelings