.deadself

Everything is changing The way I look The way I feel A new face looks back in the mirror New words form on the page Unfamiliar, completely surreal Emotions like tidal waves Am I just beating a dead horse? I can't help but spew the same old trope My voice changes with each added note I just hung it from a different rope Reused and abused with no home I feel everything and nothing And I know I've got a long way to go And I know I've got a lot of seeds to sow There's no looking back at the bridges past I burned them Long ago I cut you off like a cancer Misdiagnosed but untreatable Now you haunt me as an aimless ghost Bringing sleepless nights with no antidote You're an illness too small to detect Bringing sickness and a painful death Lurking just below the skin you rest Waiting for the day you will be met Waiting for the day you'll put me to rest You're a stone tied around my neck As I leap overboard You're the bucket that I stand on Just beside a hole in the floor Counting down the seconds left That I have just in time to realize I should have had more