Dear Dissociation

The snow is falling outside The winter's coming to find It's way inside my bones I can't escape the cold Feel like dying when I'm high Feel like I'm dying inside sometimes Over dramatic I just can't sustain the static I've been feeling like an empty attic All my life This sinking feeling that I'll never align I can't move my limbs I'm paralyzed My thoughts they race around But there's no first prize My body feels the weight It's like a thousand pounds Pressing down it holds me to the ground My tongue won't make a sound This silence is the only cure No words to speak I can't be lured Or persuaded to talk It's like my mouth is full of cotton And I'm choking on the nail of the coffin Arms crossed around my legs The skin feels soft Red eyes A panic cough