Low Unknown Expectations (2020 Demo)

I know I'm wrong and I should hate it But for now I can tolerate it Sick of my mind being second-rate and You say that I'm smart but I'm overrated No one expects me to be a delinquent Well, I'm disappointed that you didn't think that I thought that you did not care if I lived or died but you were trying to say you were a friend of mine I realized in time Questioned my doubts, tried to reach some sublime state of mind But it bobbed down below what average I might have met Default to same structures like I never went away I still use keys from where I should have left And moved on by now But I fail to reach standards that I ought to set Just to be on par with how you are I wish that you did not care if I lived or died Then I would not feel so shameful to try 'Cause I don't know how to do my best 'Cause I've never been put to the test So I go to complete this task and I inevitably hesitate And every time you say that there are only so many chances I think every one of them's a waste