Addiction (Run)

Do I need to be happy? Movies told me there's beauty in loneliness Am I too deep to catch it? There's a bubblegum sweetness between my sharp and heavy breaths The water might be dark but at least it's warm Do I need to be happy at all? I run, run, run guts in knots Run, run, run, and can't stop Run till my vitals drop And haven't started medication 'cause I'm afraid of a-a-addiction My receptors are empty Only traces of what there might've been Can't I ever be happy? Keeping busy for hints of dopamine Waves, it comes in waves So many demons lately Whispering to me daily Waves that sound like they're wailing I put a mask on and fake it Cannot last long so I Run, run, run guts in knots Run, run, run, and can't stop Run till my vitals drop And haven't started medication 'cause I'm afraid of a-a-addiction Addiction Addiction Addiction Addiction I run, run, run guts in knots Run, run, run, and can't stop Run till my vitals drop And haven't started medication 'cause I'm afraid of a-a-addiction