Better on Drugs

Better on drugs, Better on drugs Better- Better on drugs Better on drugs Better on drugs Better on drugs Better on I really had to tell myself to get real Really had to look in the mirror, man what's my deal Really had to tell myself Ced it's time to chill It was really almost yourself that you killed Because I – I just thought – that I was better on drugs If my niggas called the plug then I'm gonna re-up I got that shit, I got that stank And it's gotten me up I'm really high as a muthafucka Man a nigga is stuck I think I feel better escaping reality tho I'm bound to be another fuckin casualty It is my responsibility To do the best to care for me The best parts are concealed in me What will it take to heal me man? I'm blocking blessings Not responding to no questions Comin down feeling dysphoria Losing all the glory of Searching for euphoria Can't find it in this area I'm causing this hysteria My mind trapped in delirium Better on drugs, better-better on drugs It's like I'm Better on drugs, like I'm better on drugs Better on drugs, better-better on drugs Like I'm better on drugs Like I'm better on drugs It's pretty evident I haven't learned my lessons Keep fuckin up my chances Why do I just keep on testing Gonna feel the backlash Cause I keep on gettin' cash Just to spend on the stash Just wait for the aftermath Even with bein' surrounded by all this love and support It's just me, runnin' up north Shit been throwin' me off the course When will I say mission abort I ain't got no strength, I need a torch Been taking bumps after blunts, got my body feelin' stunned Being sober has me in the dumps, can't believe I play the front Why do I keep on pullin' stunts? I find this shit just kinda fun Man I don't even give a f*ck, where's the bridge I'ma jump Better on drugs, better-better on drugs Better on drugs, like I'm better on drugs Better on drugs, better-better on drugs Like I'm better on drugs Like I'm better on drugs Why the f*ck can't I control myself and get a grip Am I really gonna find myself at the end of this fifth If this shit ain't enough I'll find another trip I ain't with this shit, man f*ck my life, I'd rather die feeling this bliss I-I-I-I'm runnin' around here hooked on drugs Lying to my ppl, I'm ruining trust Blowed every day and I'm doing it cause I'm forever chasing after a buzz Been longin' for the thrills Start gettin' worried when I'm lookin' for the belt These are the cards that a nigga has dealt Shootin' up needles that's giving me the chills And they ask… what's going on with me? I'm losin' my mind so far away from sobriety It's my anxiety, I suffer silently But that's what happens B, I'm dying to be free Don't know a normal life I'd only be pretendin' When I know I'd rather be feedin' my addiction All my pain is self-infliction Can't let myself go over the limit Hope y'all find me when I OD I'll only regret you don't know the real me It'll be my fault for my death What am I doin' to myself? I been ruinin' my health Turnt off the liquor and the pills Cannot turn to no one else It's like I'm carrying this Hell Sacrificing for myself I'm dying to be free Better on drugs, better-better on drugs Better on drugs, like I'm better on drugs Better on drugs, better-better on drugs Like I'm better on drugs Like I'm better on drugs