Mirroring Identities

Who am I to walk? When I cannot talk I only mimic trust I am not a fraud When I'm feelin' lost, I get a little more lost Tryna be myself but, I find it exhausting What's my role to play today Hm What's trendin' on this new day Hm Hate the feelin' of my own skin Livin' reality but disconnected Thinkin' who else that I should be Cause my shell's empty, its not pretty Peter piper picked a peck of perfect personalities Don't mind me, pretendin' so they won't leave Can't help my feelings of uncertainty Cause no matter what, I feel like im a phony What are my goals? My career? My orientation? I know no matter what I say it's labeled as me sinnin' Basic questions like my hobbies leaves me puzzled Can't think of any answer, crazy how I struggle Being asked on who am I, I need a concept Cause thinkin' bout this question got me feelin more stressed That's why I wanna be somebody who is not me Cause why would I waste a perfect opportunity After a long day...of being me Or what I want to be, a fuckin' tragedy *Instrumental* Why do I even care to people please When some people don't give a single f*ck about me Nor do they give a f*ck about my current mental state It's almost like they couldn't give a damn, or just simply can't relate Change who I am depending on who's watchin' Its almost if I'm like some fucking sort of chameleon Think I might know what others want from me I hate that I'm the life of my own pity party Tryin' to please them dismissing all my needs As well as all my wants, and my personal boundaries Gettin' so desperate to cling to an identity I wish to chose the one that will best suit me Or should I rather try to follow in what I believe But there's my heart that's already restin' up on my sleeve May I ask, are you scared to be around me Cause I'm expressin' myself more freely? Now why the f*ck you wanna know about my hobbies Not like you care you'll just forget all about me Being asked on who am I, don't need a concept You don't need to know my business last time I checked I don't wanna be somebody whos not me Cause why would I waste a perfect opportunity After a long day...of being me They think I'm scary now, a fuckin' tragedy