Pain

Woke up with my mind full of hopelessness Pain in my soul, sometimes I wonder where my focus went My friends don't really care about me, no one to be open with I cry myself to sleep at night, my mom don't even notice it I just wanna kill myself, but would that really help Would that hurt my friends and would they think to blame themselves They don't care about my feelings, I feel sorry for myself Living life for other people doesn't benefit my health I'm infatuated Maybe death is like a dream, but you just can't escape it Wanna believe that heaven's real and when I die that I will make it Maybe I should get some sleep, before my thoughts just get to racing Head's feeling heavy I feel nauseous and impatient, and it's almost 3am, I think I need some medication I can't fall to sleep, my eyes are burning, thoughts are racing, tears soaking up my sheet Then I fall to sleep, to my amazement