SHAME

It's a shame that I'm cutting lines Nobody has this pain; it's only mine You can't understand it, so I'll underline This darkness poking so deep, chill down my spine I can't fight it No, I can't fight it I can't fight it It's not invited I can't fight it I'll live just to spite it I can't fight it And then I'll ignite it This pain intercepting my happiness Not a therapist, can't even help this shit 'Cause inside, all I feel is emptiness Whatever happened to that thing people call bliss? I can't find it No, I can't find it I can't find it What is wrong with me? The weight on my chest suffocates my breath A constant battle, a struggle with no rest I'm drowning in despair, lost in the abyss A captive of sadness, my heart's in distress Every smile forced, a façade must beware But inside, I am shattered, beyond repair Each day's a reminder that the pain that won't fade Haunted by memories, in darkness, I wade It's a shame, all of the attempts I've made, All the times that I've been played, All the times I took the blame It's so unreal This ain't how I'm ‘posed to feel And it's a shame, all of the mistakes I've made, All the times my sadness gained, All the times I wanted fame But it's unrealistic Why am I so pessimistic? Why am I to blame? It's a shame People keep on telling me to fix my life What makes them think I'll take their advice? How I'm feeling's not fair; they just don't care They just want me to put down the knife These meds don't work If they did, they're shitty ‘cause I still feel hurt I just wanna be six feet in the dirt I'm sorry for being dark, but living is the worst yeah It's a shame, all of the attempts I've made, All the times that I've been played, All the times I took the blame It's so unreal This ain't how I'm ‘posed to feel And it's a shame, all of the mistakes I've made, All the times my sadness gained, All the times I wanted fame But it's unrealistic Why am I so pessimistic? Oh, the sorrow stains my breath, A constant ache, a dance with death In this darkness, hope is a dream, A shattered soul, tearing at the seams In this desolate place, my spirit's worn thin, Aching for release from the pain within With every heartbeat, I yearn for peace, But darkness consumes; all hope shall cease With every heartbeat, I yearn for peace, But darkness consumes; all hope shall cease It's a shame, all of the attempts I've made, All the times that I've been played, All the times I took the blame It's so unreal This ain't how I'm ‘posed to feel And it's a shame, all of the mistakes I've made, All the times my sadness gained, All the times I wanted fame But it's unrealistic Why am I so pessimistic?