(Why Do I) Feel Like Crying?

Why do I feel like crying? And also dying Why do I not like surviving? And neither fighting I guess, there is something super wrong with me Why can’t I just die so that I can be free? Wait, someone please tell me my fate Because all I feel is hate, towards me it’s so hard that I can’t breath Can someone share the remedy? Honestly, feelings so heavy All I wanna do is hang from the frontlines All my life I’ve been benched at the sidelines Is it so hard to get what is mine? If I ever said I was happy, I was lyin’ Why do I feel like crying? And also dying Why do I not like surviving? And neither fighting I guess there is something super wrong with me Why can’t I just die so that I can be free? Telling me one thing, but then you move on, (move on) Really wishing I could get a call back (call back) Mama told me to stop calling you, texting you, But little did you know how much you mean to me I might be broken, but I still got self-respect As much as I wanna talk to you, I gotta stay put, I gotta find someone other than you, Someone who can care for me and love me, And give me what I deserve So please, if you want to get back with me, fix yourself first (Something you could never do), And I don’t blame you, for not having your mind straight Stupid little tho- Why do I feel like crying? And also dying Why do I not like surviving? And neither fighting I guess, there is something super wrong with me Why can’t I just die so that I can be free? When I feel a little happy Life seems to move on without me I guess that I’ll never see joy I keep getting played like a toy When will I learn life isn’t fair Just know mentally I’m not here I wish I could just disappear Just vanish into thin air Because I can’t keep on like this I don’t even wanna exist Maybe if I try hard enough My life will finally be done Maybe if I just end my life Everything will turn out alright Why do I feel like crying? And also dying Why do I not like surviving? And neither fighting I guess, there is something super wrong with me Why can’t I just die so that I can be free? Why do I feel like crying? It’s unsurprising Why do I not like surviving? My death is mesmerizing I see clearly, it is my time to finally go Six feet, so deep, in the soil my roots will grow Why do I feel like crying? It’s terrifying Why do I not like surviving? I regret all my actions That’s it, no more, this is my canon event I simply can’t keep living in the present