prelude

Hello, hello, hello Hello, hello Come and walk by my side I've come a long way, hey! Breaking up the silence Me in front of the audience This is what I wanna do You don't even notice It has all my focus Oh one day you'll notice yeah I'll be the one, be the one To prove it all and pay the price No one thought I would pay And this is only the start Even if I show I'm innocent In my mind I got it figured out Got y'all figured out I mean it's hard for me to explain but I trust only myself I've been hurt and disappointed Happens to all but I do Know you were all fake friends Big lies, all that shit I do Know it all hurts the same I know I'll never be the same Okay, people talk before they could even think about it But I think way too much All I know I never talked I was afraid of the response What? You talked shit about me And now you want to blame me This ain't usually me I can be a bitch and then regret it Didn't even notice I swear I didn't even notice no, no, no No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no Didn't even notice I swear I didn't even notice no, no, no It's a lie I notice everything And pretend I don't but trust me I don't forget, said, I don't forget I got some things to figure out, my anxiety Is taking control of my thoughts And it's inevitable I try to hide it, the truth I hid myself from whoever i met Since now, wearing a mask And now I wanna take it all off Was I ever too close Or were others too invasive I guess we'll never know I wasn't communicative I'm still now It makes my life a mess And I know now That's why I'm still a mess Afraid of I cannot control it What? I cannot control people's minds and it hurts me And I don't even want it And now you see me thinking "Where's the Celeste I used to know?" And I'm like "Bitch I'm me and that old shit is gone"