I Wonder

I haven't stopped drinking water To get rid of the pressure in my chest I feel more vulnerable than ever I think my feelings are a mess I have been trying to stop overthinking, But I guess I just can't My surroundings are fucked up (upssí) I wish I could run away I wonder, I wonder, I wonder Is this meant for me? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder Will I be able to chase my dreams? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder What's the right thing? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder If someone would be proud of me I try to face it, But in the end I'm losing myself I see myself in the mirror, I have been crying since the first glance I tried to gain some positive sides, But I'm the pessimistic friend And right now no one can understand me At least music always will be there I wonder, I wonder, I wonder Is this meant for me? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder Will I be able to chase my dreams? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder What's the right thing? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder If someone would be proud of me My future is blurry And uncertainty frightens me I know I'm sure about it, But good choices don't come to me What if I don't get the chance? What if I can't afford it? Maybe I realized too late And now I cannot ignore it I wonder, I wonder, I wonder Is this meant for me? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder Will I be able to chase my dreams? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder What's the right thing? I wonder, I wonder, I wonder If someone would be proud of me