How Long Can This Go On

I don't know how I let things get this bad again Thought it was under control, the walls are wearing thin I used to know who I was and who I could have been It's not the same anymore, I need that pain again and again and again and a All that's gone Still follows me Fucked up and wrong And incomplete I know I cannot fix myself with half the pieces missing How long can this go on? How long can I hold on? So many years have gone with nothing real to show But now I'm more afraid of how much is left to go Ever deeper the cut and the blade moves so slow If this is all that there is I... I don't know, I don't know... All that's gone Still follows me Fucked up and wrong And incomplete I know I cannot fix myself with half the pieces missing How long can this go on? How long can I hold on? Is that all there is? Is that all there is? It's all coming down now How long can this go on? How long can I hold on? How long can this go on? How long can I hold on?