Fix it

Do I even wanna try this? I don't think we can revive this Why am I willing to risk it? Don't even know that I'm willing to risk it Do I even wanna try this? I don't think we can revive this Why am I willing to risk it? Don't even know if I'm willing to risk it Well I guess it's outta my hands Keep trying because we're parents And I want to make amends Most of the time, we're not even friends Hung in for way too long Can't fix it, I'm not that strong And you know it takes two I was alone there you stood By myself and there you stood There you stood Holding my own and there you stood By myself, you just stood Thinking I could really fix it You made up your mind before I did So why am I even trying This is what you wanted! I felt guilt, I felt shame My personality was to blame And I kept toning me down I was free when you weren't around I was free I was free I was free Honestly Do I even want to try this? - Out of my hands I don't think we can revive this - Way too long Why am I willing to risk it? Don't even know that I'm willing to risk it- Not that strong Do I even want to try this? - Out of my hands I don't think we can revive this Why am I willing to risk it? Don't even know if I'm willing to risk it This is what you wanted Told myself I should have seen it coming I was busy working on myself and keep us going Talking about my feeling, I was always in my feelings And I'm sick and tired of you taking position of the the victim I don't want to be the one who's always bringing up the pain I don't want to be the only one of us who's not okay You're telling me to drop that tone I'm way too harsh, I'm way too intense And I yell too much and so I just Stopped Stop pleading Stop needing Stop feeling Stop fixing Stop longing Stop wanting Gotta let you go You're no longer good for me Never thought I would show That I was weak That I was weak That I was weak