So Sorry to Say

so lost tell me how can it be i'm desperately trying to understand why i will push you from me so close but so far away i cannot see how this happened to me i'm so sorry to say so lost for so long i cannot tell how in my mind and what moment in time i woke up in this cell so close yet so far away i cannot see how this happened to me i'm so sorry to say i want you to go away from me i want you so much to stay with me