Guilt V. Remorse

Would you still love me if i said I don't believe in God? Would you treat me different if I told you I'm just lost? And baby I don't wanna scare you away with all my deepest thoughts But maybe it's time to tell you how I been feeling like I'm inside a box Gotta let it out of me A nigga been feeling guilty Scared of expressing myself, to be honest, my heart doesn't look pretty But since that you with me now I guess I gotta find a way to um, cleanse my fear Where would this road I take lead me towards if death was following me somewhere?.... Time is tickin' and... can't really say I'm living When all I do is stress bout money, even having it Problems up and runnin' I'm gone, high speed 98 then crash, let me see where I'll go And if im landing straight up into hell how come? When the world we've been living on is hell its own Would you still love me if i said I don't believe in God? Would you treat me different if I told you I'm just lost? And baby I don't wanna scare you away with all my deepest thoughts But maybe it's time to tell you how I been feeling like I'm inside a box Why do good ones suffer while the bad ones always thrive? Will I have a chance of marriage and kids fore I die? Today could be my last, and wouldn't be proud how I lived my life... Cause I did alotta wrong than ever tryna figure out more of how to do more of my right Suicide all on my mind, am I strong enough to even really get into heaven? You will never know depression till you getting hit with something being brought up to you crazy coming unexpected Like a child on the way, and feeling remorse, 24/7 all a nigga ever been dreading Stereotypically nigga, all these critics out here, really thinking imma be that father who abandoned But... Would you still love me if i said I don't believe in God? Would you treat me different if I told you I'm just lost? And baby I don't wanna scare you away with all my deepest thoughts But maybe it's time to tell you how I been feeling like I'm inside a box