Disconnected

I remember as a child, curling by Your side, seeking warmth in a world so Wide Your lap was my haven, your arms my shield But even then, no love was revealed At five, at seven, the bond felt strong, by ten I knew something was wrong Hugs grew hollow, your smiles untrue, and the Distance between us silently grew I feel no connection, no bond remains, just Empty words and lingering pain You repeat the patterns, the same toxic game A family in name, but not the same I've tried to reach, to break the chain, but all I've found is heartache and shame My sister's voice, sharp as a blade, memories of Torment that never fade No bond could grow from wounds so deep Her laughter haunts where I can't sleep And you, my father, so distant, so cold, your Love like a story that's never been told My accomplishments, you meet with disdain A reminder I'll never escape the pain I feel no connection, no bond remains, just empty Words and lingering pain You repeat the patterns, the same toxic game, a Family in name, but not the same I've tried to reach, to break the chain, but all I've Found is heartache and shame I wanted to love, to feel something real, but Your actions stole what I wanted to feel Hugs and words, they've lost their weight Left with silence, resentment, and fate I can't rebuild what you've torn apart, no Bridge can span this broken heart So I'll stand alone, I'll make my way Leaving behind the pain of yesterday I feel no connection, no bond remains, just empty Words and lingering pain You repeat the patterns, the same toxic game, a family In name, but not the same I've tried to reach, to break the chain, but all I've Found is heartache and shame I've let go of the hope, the bond we lacked, there's No going forward, no turning back In my heart, I'll carry the truth untold, that love Cannot thrive where it's been cold.