Not afraid to lose you

You called me selfish when I said no Told me love means bending low But I've broken for you far too long, sang My worth in a silent song You watched me fall, and turned away, my Pain was never yours to stay And still I begged, and still I tried, but a part Of me just slowly died I'm not afraid to lose you, not anymore I've closed the windows, locked the doors No more chains, no more games, I won't be Set on fire just to warm your name You left me when I needed Truth So I'm not afraid to lose you My sister laughed while I bled out, my mother Taught me fear and doubt And he, my love, was just the same Control and silence were his game But I picked up every shattered shard Stitched my soul, though it was hard They never saw the storm I fought The only blamed me for getting caught I'm not afraid to lose you, not anymore I've closed the windows, locked the doors No more chains, no more games, I won't be Set on fire just to warm your name You left me when I needed Truth So I'm not afraid to lose you You were silent when I cried, absent when I Nearly died Now you'll scream and I won't hear Your absence brings me peace, not fear I'm not afraid to lose you, not anymore This broken heart has closed the door No more guilt, no more shame You can't haunt me - not In my name I rise from ashes, fierce And true And I'm not afraid to lose You And this time I choose me.