Unfair Silence

I never understood the rules you made, where silence Meant safety, where love was a blade They could cut me deep, and I couldn't fight, one wrong Move, and I'd lose my light Told to be strong but never allowed, to raise my voice, to Stand up proud Yet their hands were free to break me down, and I was left To choke and drown Why was it okay for them to tear me apart? Why was I the villain for guarding my heart? You told me to fight, but punished my cries, I was drowning In pain, lost in your lies Why was I never enough to defend? Why did I break while they got to bend? One word, one scratch, one desperate plea, and I was The monster, the blame fell on me Yet they could scream, they could tear, and I'd still be The one gasping for air You said don't let them push me around, but the moment I stood, you dragged me down Even now, after all these years, your defenses rise, while I Choke on my tears Why was it okay for them to tear me apart? Why was I the villain for guarding my heart? You told me to fight, but punished my cries, I was drowning In pain, lost in your lies Why was I never enough to defend? Why did I break while they got to bend? One word, one scratch, one desperate plea, and I was The monster, the blame fell on me Yet they could scream, they could tear, and I'd still be The one gasping for air You said don't let them push me around, but the moment I stood, you dragged me down Even now, after all these years, your defenses rise, while I Choke on my tears Why was it okay for them to tear me apart? Why was I the villain for guarding my heart? You told me to fight, but punished my cries, I was drowning In pain, lost in your lies Why was I never enough to defend? Why did I break while they got to bend? I may never get the answers I seek, but I won't stay silent I won't be weak I carry these scars, but I walk away, no longer bound by The games you play Lost in your lies Lost in your lies.