Thunder Thoughts

Y'all don't know about the voices that were in my head Y'all don't know about the voices that were in my head And you wouldn't know And you wouldn't know And you wouldn't know And you wouldn't know I showed a true smile Everything is real, including the laughter but one time it got dark for a while Then the mindset would shift a bit after I wanted to be just like the kids with no stress, not ever growing a zit Is this really why I was feeling depressed? Maybe I was just throwing a fit I wanna know what was going on inside because I was raised right with two parents by my side Maybe the age, the immaturity at the time I would slap my younger self if I went back in time I want to remove these negatives and put them on a shelf next to the books that nobody reads All of the covers that nobody sees Meanwhile, I'll be planting my tree And when I'm done. it'll be around 500 feet All the sweat, spit, tears, and the blood that I bleed And ain't no rapper that could ever take that from me 'Cause lyrically, they're gonna be six feet deep Why do I have these thoughts starting to creep When I'm in my bed just trying to sleep So I decide to hide myself under the sheets With the voices in my head that I'm tryna defeat And the other voices that I never want y'all to meet Thought the battle wouldn't stop but I don't wanna leave I think God kept me here, that's what I'd like to believe I'm thankful nowadays for every breath that I breathe I didn't get all my wants but I got what I need Yeah, yeah, me and my family My insecurities tryna get rid of me Tryna pity me? Oh my, silly me I don't understand, maybe I need a drink Maybe some tequila 'till I'm laid over a sink The other half wants to stay sober I think Maybe wait right here, I'll hire a shrink Yeah, I may be crazy Somebody tell a doctor My mind is still spinning like a freakin' helicopter Don't know how to stop it or how to detain it I guess I have no choice, other than embrace it Maybe I belong inside an asylum With my best friends, sitting right beside 'em These are 'Thunder Thoughts No, I'm not Poseidon Cry me a river, just so I can dive in This is getting real old like Biden No, no, never Flawed? Yeah, forever but never gonna go away I don't wanna leave I don't wanna leave I don't wanna leave 'Cause I still believe 'Cause I still believe I don't wanna leave I don't wanna leave 'Cause I still believe 'Cause I still believe Yeah, yeah, the pain is deep The pain is deep The pain is deep The pain is deep But that's okay, that's okay with me Yuh If it wasn't for the people I would knew it hurt Long ago, I would've left this Earth You wouldn't know You wouldn't know You wouldn't know You wouldn't' know, you wouldn't know, you wouldn't know