Take Care

When I look in the mirror itll be okay I say to myself every single day Sometimes I question did I loose my way Or did I grow and just didnt notice the change How do you feel when you look at me that way What do I mean Girl do you see your face Your eyes just feel like a warm embrace But my times limited so why bother chase your love Why should I chase your love Plus recently I been fucked up Would love to get high but I don't got drugs And theirs not enough alcohol to get drunk Or tipsy Cause from life I got a lot of whippings And most of my scars are not healing So If I tell you everything would you feel me Or would I push you away with my feelings These feelings of love The feeling of trauma That make you feel numb I tried to push you away but that make me feel dumb Im sorry I just had to be honest for once And honestly you make me feel high with no blunt And I like when youre blunt you making feel so blunted My mom said dont trust everyone stay cautious But my hearts big thats why Im always in nonsense When it comes to women I'm not even kidding I always stayed surface level time to do some digging Without my mom present random girls did the replacing And its really apparent once wed start dating I cant believe allowed being complacent Now look at me over here on this trick complaining Plus I got issues that Im still shaking And I then I ask why make her tolerate it When I look in the mirror itll be okay I say to myself every single day Sometimes I question did I loose my way Or did I grow and just didnt notice the change How do you feel when you look at me that way What do I mean Girl do you see your face Your eyes just feel like a warm embrace But my times limited so why bother chase I'm dealing with more bullshit everyday I'm constantly getting in my own way I'm wondering why I cant just move on I wish I could just forget all my wrongs I learned everything can go in an instant Just in one second boom then everythings finished So on this tape Im gonna lay it out today Cause taking regrets to the grave is not the way Lets start with the easiest I really do love you Im in love with everything you bring and I want you I'm not tryna rush a relationship girl honest But I want to tell you cause it weighs on my conscience And to my mother I hate you Although I forgave you It just sucks cause I feel we just wont have a break through Parts of me hope you hear this and deep down it breaks you But I wasn't raised that way, so Ill just negate you And to all my loved ones thanks for me letting me be me For not boxing me up and letting me just be free I promise once I big we going overseas and be way above the hate and negativity