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Dear Ceo, I hope you get this message My name's Will Olenyik, and we never met I been watching you for years and it can get excessive We just have so much in common no one coulda guessed it You don't have a second chance to make a first impression But I know that what I'm writing should grab your attention If I'm wrong about anything, you can make corrections And if you pay attention we can break the tension We might be the same person I know that's obsessive I already took the time to make every connection I'm also an alcoholic with severe depression Congrats on the 2 years, I know it's impressive We sobered up on September 2nd I don't need a mirror to see the reflection I threw my life away and I needed redemption It's hard to map it out when we needed direction, you Helped me out through a crazy time with my ex I was fresh out of rehab, and in fear of what's coming next Started smoking cigarettes to cope with all the stress We smoke the same pack, you prolly think I'm obsessed You can tell that I study you closely I've been waiting for the day that you come and approach me Just to tell you this in person cuz I know that you've been hurtin You get love from everyone how the f*ck are you lonely God gave you everything you ever wanted but you always ignore the fact that ya blessed homie Everyone from rehab, either died or relapsed, you are nothing like the rest homie Every suicidal thought, and all the lies that you forgot, are what you needed to confess homie Lost weight cuz ya starve, all these cuts on ya arms, I won't stop til ya dead homie You're fucking nothin don't ever tell me you are somethin Actin like this good person when you're far from it F*ck the music shit I'll listen when you stop runnin I pray to God that when you read this shit you'll start cuttin When you die I need to know that I'm the cause of it If I'm pushing any buttons it's the off button, shit How can you live knowing everything that you give To this goal that you wanna get is a lie You were caught bluffin And knowing everything was make believe You lost yo fuckin mind and now it's plain to see Every time you had a bottle you were chasin me How the f*ck are you afraid when you were safe with me? How can you manipulate yourself Helpin everybody out, when you been afraid of help All then secrets that you keep, that you been afraid to tell I don't even know a time, that you didn't hate yourself Okay, if you won't answer to me What the f*ck would Brandon say to you if Brandon could speak Cuz he needed you that night and you couldn't give a reply So then he took his fucking car and then he ran through a tree You weren't even at his funeral service I wish you ended up like him because you would've deserved it Tell me, how can you live with yourself F*ck what you did for yourself, look what you did to yourself, wait I know you found someone you think you deserve She promised not to leave you and she's keepin her word You think you're the best she ever had And do the minimum cuz everybody treated her worse? listen You can't blame your ex anymore You can't blame it on the fact that you're depressed anymore You can't blame it on your post traumatic stress anymore You can't lie to them and say you'll try your best anymore After this there won't be shit we have to guess anymore You can't act like you don't have shit to confess anymore You can't even lift the weight off of your chest anymore You're the reason why your friends are always pressing ignore Did you push em away, or do they know the truth Did they find it out when jenna was exposing you When everybody saw your dick and made a joke of you And if you still don't know why she would do that shit I told her to I know you can tell, I'm the only reason you don't love yourself You weren't homeless til the bottle told you something else I get it, that's the way I always use ciroc Same abandonment issues the bottle used to block But you forgot to be honest with us I can't respect it And I don't give a f*ck about your damn perspective I wrote this shit hopin you'll understand the message You know that you need to die and you can't prevent The suicide, what if you did it again Would you live to tell the story or would this be the end All the times that you attempted and I know you're feeling tempted I can tell you wanna risk it again Do you think if you went missin again That someone would give a f*ck enough to fix it again You did this to yourself, by yourself A cry for help won't mean a thing if they don't listen again I know you say that you got nothin to lose If I did this shit to you then what the f*ck would you do You told me to run away but I'm not running from you Cuz every time you fucking cut yourself you're cutting me too I got the scares to prove it, but we got em covered From wearing all these hoodies in the hottest summer, tell me How could anybody say they're proud of you When you only didn't do what you're about to do Happy Birthday