Endlessly Depleting Energy

New pain Yeah, okay I been feelin' like my energy depleted Last few years, I been wrestlin' with demons I got no iron on me, like I'm definitely anemic (Demon) Protect myself from bloody eyes I don't trust nobody, so I never give 'em none of my- Time, that's just one of my things I don't run with my team I fear that the intention of my people isn't what it might seem Some days, I'ma win, most, I suck at life things Poison in my blood, I got these leeches tryna save my limbs Blood-lettin' 'til I cave right in Got my cake and confetti, let me make my wish I don't pray like this on average nights, yeah 'Cause in terms of my position, what I have suffices But I can't take a single thing to the afterlife- man Time is expensive I had so much taken from me, you'd think it's kind of impressive Lie on a record just to writhe in rejection What if my mission in this life is one that I couldn't finish? They say the sky is the limit What if I crash into the Firmament when tryna get in it? I could die any minute, know this is hella risky But I'm goin' longer than a pelican beak So I stick out in the room, I am the elephant- (Please!) Put a spotlight on my failure But if it ain't mine, then I couldn't tell ya Never mind, put records out in record time to sell ya Couple o' minutes feels like an eternity nowadays It hurts to be out of place, searching how to stay Relevant, I wanna score the rebounds during power plays I'm on thin ice, with big shoes to fill Goalie holdin' the blue line, in a pinch for real Who you think you can fool twice? My defense is real Bread Of Life to nourish the army I was dead inside, and now I'm God-breathed The greatest lesson I learned this year is that talk's cheap It don't matter how profound I get One call is all I'll need, instead, I hide my head Trust-fallin' with lil' Beelzebub is how I'll end Lately, it's been gettin' heated how I'm playin' with fire Lackin' in motivation, I'm feelin' drained and I'm tired Keep livin' on the edge, I might not make it tomorrow, I swear Real