Sleepwalking, Pt. 2

No, I didn't get much sleep last night, who cares? I was deeply in my thoughts, who knew routinely I'd be here? Not me, no, really, I done seen 'em creep up by my bed I fought demons manifested as evil thoughts by my head "You know, that single might be hard But it redefined what's your peak, why you so prideful, dawg? Ain't even finish another track, so why you lyin', huh? You couldn't even grind for a week 'fore you stop tryin' hard So let's face it: you ain't got a backbone or a spine at all Good thing they can't read behind the pen But if you tried too hard, they wouldn't even like you then! What if you died tomorrow? You wouldn't leave behind your kin With much to work with 'sides a heapin' pile of mid, that's why you let me in! You know I'm right, you paranoid, I'm bigger than you! You said you'd back up what!? I'ma have fun livin' with you! You really actin' like you ain't ever had issues that bruised? You should just pack it up, they ain't wantin' deliverance; you're through! Pitiful fool!" I took my sword and cut his speech short then I really need to breathe more, man Give me a second, please I was sleepwalking through a den of thieves Eventually, as I picked up the pace, I slowly seen that pressure cease to exist Then started thinkin' back to notes I wrote, my preacher had said A whole batch of dough could be leavened when a lil' yeast is thrown in But even still, I ain't had my fill, I think I need some more bread Apologize for all the times I played the victim I'm the fault in the lines for sure, see I caused my downfall, I ain't walked in a light that's holy Any feelings that I'm harnessin' inside won't hold me From these heights I'd been leapin', this high Got me tweakin', buggin', and this pride in me deep for what? Mm I should'a seen it comin' This box ain't gon' keep me company I cut corners to make room, uh Took a whole side off myself in the process Mixed all my colors to make blue, uh Well, I'ma paint my picture on this soakin' piece of cardboard, I guess It's priceless But take a blind look at every masterpiece and you'll laugh at mine Still see the old me in me won't leave Watch it hold me closely from the afterlife How many times can I kill my flesh Before it sleep for good, I mean, honestly? Like, my body count's somewhere up in the hundreds I been on the defense constantly Needin' some time to be solemn and process it all, but To earn some seems doubtful to me Used to be "What'd you think of my new album?" Now it's "Here's a song, are you proud of m-me?" Took a chip off the old block, onto my shoulder it goes Still I yearn for my lil' chance to breathe When you ain't had a father figure, that hit closer to home Guess it- runs within my family So much that I can't unsee or see, don't know how far that I fell When will we finally hit the ground? Only the Father can tell So I'ma go, maybe I'm just bein' too hard on myself Tomorrow evening, you'll be back, I'm prayin' hard I don't fail Sleep