MAMA

I'm sorry mama For the things I've said and done It's my disorder defining what I've become When I was 15, I wanted martyrdom The manic vision told me that I was the one I'm sorry mama Its difficult to explain The shit we broke, our devils, and decay Oh I'm sorry mama It never was your fault I'm full of poison, eating down the rot You always told me, give it your best shot But I am breaking from The thoughts that I concoct Oh This house is burning down It's a thousand degrees I need to find my body Buried in debris I think my head is aching Please will somebody Bring me back to earth Where I can breathe This cage that I have found Encasing me Squeezing out my life Smothering me I think my heart is aching Destroying the desire to awaken The depths in me I'm sorry mama For writing out this song It's how I process all I know that's wrong When I was 16, I was fighting with alarm The men I trusted with my life only caused me harm Oh I'm sorry mama For thoughts I have inside It doesn't impact what I know is right Oh I'm sorry mama It never was your fault I'm full of poison, eating down the rot You always told me, give it your best shot But I am breaking from The thoughts that I concoct Oh This house is burning down It's a thousand degrees I need to find my body Buried in debris I think my head is aching Please will somebody Bring me back to earth Where I can breathe This cage that I have found Encasing me Squeezing out my life Smothering me I think my heart is aching Destroying the desire to awaken The depths in me