Chorus of Lies

A dry month and I'm back Let's face it, I've cracked A chorus of lies Spy the eyes on my back I'd give myself more shit For falling off the wagon If it had four fuckin' wheels Just can't catch the dragon I can't catch the dragon Glances repelled By what their eyes smell A lone gunman thinker Who's sinking to hell If only I could lose myself in the fray Not give a f*ck who's looking my way Can I be free of this decadent vice? I'm crawiling into moments and paying the price A tenuous tension envelopes the scene Try as I might I still haven't come clean To the glaring distress going off in my brain Hoping that patience will banish my pain Oh, victim of chance Of discarded will Riddled with weakness And poisonous swill Poison Thinking about it And not doing anything What am I doing?