What Could've Been (feat. David L. Tijerina & Rachael Elder Tijerina)

This is one of my most vivid memories Memories The bath you gave to me the night before I started kindergarten I haven't forgotten I haven't forgotten How could I? How could I? How could I? You held my head under the water Again and again and screaming, I shouldn't have been born Over and over again You held my head under the water Again, and again and again I don't hate you don't want to berate you When you die I might cry More likely I'll mourn what could have been You my mother and best friend Your nails dug into my head while you washed it and said I was going to divorce your father, but you were born instead I don't hate you don't want to berate you When you die I might cry More likely I'll mourn what could have been You my mother and best friend You scratched my face and screamed, "You look just like him "You look just like him" You ugly thing. Ugly thing. You ugly thing I don't hate you don't want to berate you When you die I might cry More likely I'll mourn what could have been You my mother and best friend What can I say? The crooked scratch you left on my face didn't go away It scabbed over the next day You can see it in my class photo It's there to stay. It's there to stay. There to stay I don't hate you don't want to berate you When you die I might cry More likely I'll mourn what could have been You my dearest mother and best friend