Keep It Inside

Why do they try to squeeze tears from a stone Only to build their sculptures ? This art can't be made alone It's a product of breaking countless bones So Many times I Will keep it inside She wonders why we don't talk on the phone As if it has anything to do with my love for her Hard to explain why i must be alone So many times I Just keep it inside So many times I Will keep it inside Living a dream Where people stare & judge Analyze, Idolize our Flaws and such Hard as I try it won't be good enough To please all y'all I would have fought to the death for your respect I would have fought till the end Still Struggling to make it through every Breath But I tend to keep it inside Endless fascination It's a bit Degrading To sing guts out Vomiting for some entertainment People pissed When I can't serve as their personal therapist Believe me I wish to be there for Everyone In this Mess Miss you, Miss so much, Missed another funeral Wedding Your touch Every day in limbo I'm feeling my physical go But I don't know a better way to dig myself out of this hole It's a perpetual blessing and curse When your work is to not work Navigating industry dirt There's very little space For a taste of normalcy Please know i dreamt of being everything you wanted But I'll leave you be I would have fought to the death for your respect I would have fought till the end But I lost touch And became a one man band So now I just keep it inside I would have fought to the death for your respect I would have fought till the end Tried my hardest but I still broke promises So Now I just keep it inside