Broken

Idontsleep C'est la Vie Yeah, look My soul had a nap for the longest time Had to regain faith, had to find myself So I found myself with these songs of mine Yeah, these songs I write Are more than just a piece of music All this pain, they see me through it I need time to tell my truth, 'cos if I don't then I might lose it No fake raps, I can't abuse it Write a bar, then I pursue it Relieve stress that's in my mental, think this music's therapeutic Yeah yeah So I sit and I draft these melodies They used to laugh at me Look being alone really scarred my energy That cut deep, f*ck That complex now carves me heavily Now I can't speak up Abuse the weed, tryna harm my memory I used to have to have no friends, now I've got these fans telling me they love me Still I can't hear hear all that, 'cos I've got these voices saying I'm ugly I spent my childhood looking at humanity, praying it loved me And I got no love back, I was kicked the curb like dirt Humanity fucked me up Yeah Still I go hard as I can They don't wanna see me bar with a man If I bar with a man, might start on a man, then spar with a man, then spark up a gram And sit back like what happened? Laugh at a man, cos I ain't got no recollection, uh Black out if I get too heated, but that's just for my protection I'm angry, I move anti I've got a plan A, but no plan B This is all I want and I can be Please don't tell me shit were not family Please don't get in my face, I don't like that No telling if I might fight back, uh I don't know what I get so hyped at, yeah F*ck it though I might as well ignite that I'm sorry i can't take no compliments, not today Shit I've been through really knocked my confidence, in every way So I'm sorry if I seem a little distant If blessings come my way then fucking hell, I must of missed them, yeah I'm sorry i can't take no compliments, not today Shit I've been through really knocked my confidence, in every way So I'm sorry if I seem a little distant If blessings come my way then fucking hell, I must of missed them, imprisoned, i'm broken Yeah, I don't know how I cope with all these emotions So much anger built up inside my brain, that I start going through these motions Got me kicking and screaming Boiling the pot till I'm hitting the ceiling Knock at the door I'm revisiting demons, now I've got more of these issues revealing What is the meaning? Somebody, tell me the meaning of life, or why I'm awake in the middle of night? Gripping my chest in a panic from what I've been dreaming My spirit is bleeding Check my demeanour, visible leaking Music my band aid, as long as I'm rapping I'll never be beaten No more sleeping, yeah My soul had a nap for the longest time Had to regain faith, had to find myself So I found myself with these songs of mine Yeah, these songs I write Are more than just a piece of music All this pain, they see me through it I need time to tell my truth, 'cos if I don't then I might lose it No fake raps, I can't abuse it Write a bar, then I pursue it Relieve stress that's in my mental, think this music's therapeutic Yeah yeah