Blue Moon Relapse

I remember when we were lying When you were sitting here beside me We held each other close Not knowing the most Not knowing each other at all Every day I'm with you I dive deeper It's a choice I cannot make for myself You weren't ready You jumped in too quick You caught me in the pull of your fall You're not the normal nine-to-fiver, no Honest pay for honest work These men they waste away Falling deeper through their own desires And I need to ask Why must I stand by here While you gain from the losses they own You open yourself You give them yourself There's no passion but there's wealth to be made What happens when you take the small man's hand And make it the crux of the scene We're all so small There's bigger crises to fight This inconsequence is sickening me Riding on this train despite knowing the tracks lead nowhere Can't get off, gotta stay on to feed the addiction to chance But I know I have no chance That luxury is not mine These failures of mine keep getting thrown in my face I failed you once and it continues to show I'm sorry love For what I did Would you give me a second chance I know that what you're doing is not out of love You gotta do it just to make ends meet But I still can't help This pain that I feel I'm sorry this is how I am