Guarantee

This is not what you expect of me at all Because I'm doing this for the ones who fall You think you know what it's like? (You don't) You think I can go for a hike? (I don't) You say just go for it But it makes me feel like a piece of shit The world drags us down It's not that easy going into town How far is it here How far is it there How the f*ck do I go anywhere It makes it so easy for me to stay in and not go out as I don't have to think about the things that fill my head With doubt You think you are going to make me realize that I can do so much more but what if I'm tired of fighting this Fucking war I really can't do it anymore it's such a chore I know some of you know the score Don't use me to project your unease with disability Uplifting comments when I'm on your instagram feed Makes you feel good but has nothing to do with me Treat me like a person there's no guarantee Don't tell me I'm an inspiration Just cause my body went through mutilation You don't want to feel that frustration It builds up a feeling like gestation Now what was I meant to do You're saying if it was in fact you That you would have just given up fool And you think what you said was really cool You just Don't get it What I'm feeling like it's pathetic Talking to me like you're a medic Maybe the whole things systematic The world Is wrong Why am I even writing this song Maybe I'm just joining the throng Maybe I've been alone too long Maybe I'm just trying to make sense of anything at all while I spew my shit everywhere and hoping everyone Just plays along Don't use me to project your unease with disability Uplifting comments when I'm on your instagram feed Makes you feel good but has nothing to do with me Treat me like a person there's no guarantee