SURVIVED

Up all night sleep couldn't find me I was wide awake Spread my wings free my spirit I'm not okay To the most high I know you hear me I gotta find a way I'm learning patience cause prayers aine answered right away Night and day swear the day and night start to feel the same Keep telling myself just to chill out cause these are simple things Mental things but cant seem to let go of mental pains I wish that phone call I got that night would've never came I could not believe it head was spinning updates I needed Ain't thinking bout sleeping brain was way to active that evening Like please I need ya please just make it through the procedures Phone calls and messages steady coming from random people Half came from family but most of em I aine never read em My only concern was is OG alive and breathing No I can't do this shit my nigga I'm tripping I'm tweaking Tryna work on smiling more often but this broke me to pieces Man this shit is all in pieces My life It's decent I lied Please don't let it be the reason You cry Cause you're still breathing Survived So when I arrived tears was all in my eyes never seen You like this so it's hard for me not to cry bubba was right beside me He told me that it's alright know I gotta be strong for my siblings for you and I The next day we came back you barely opened yo eyes But when I grabbed your hand you had squeezed mine so tight I probably told you I love you a hunnit thousand times You don't know how happy I am that you had survived This one meant a lot it just wasn't another night shit was gettin dull I was seeing in black n white you don't understand How you add the color to life heart still full of pain But I'm knowing that you're alive This the type of shit that just really disturb the mind Try not to think about it swea on god I be trying Gather my emotions Im tryna keep em in line You can see my smile but you know I'm hurting inside Man this shit is all in pieces My life It's decent I lied Please don't let it be the reason You cry Cause you're still breathing Survived