Missed Calls (feat. CapsCtrl)

If I'm honest I'm not the calmest I'd really like to spike my drink with comet Then you could pretend my departure was in a rocket I prefer the space of being alone I'll never be the person that they call home Live my life as a shut in If I could then I would never have to spread myself thin Live my life in a solitary den If you called I'm sorry I didn't pick up again I couldn't even tell you Where my phone is Or the last time that I saw it All I know is that it's been missing I don't want it What's the point of taking calls when I'm falling What's the point of taking calls when I'm falling I'm falling I'm not the person that you marry I'm the one that you carry An image of Ingrained into your brain Because I was the person to set you up For who comes after me I'm just the training I don't want to be anything I don't want to be what you made me You have a notion of what I should be Based on what you think when you see me Idolatry Applied when I was sixteen Applies in my twenties I don't think it'll ever not apply Because you fuckers don't really know me You see what I project but I am a project Taped together when it cracked Then left unchecked Until you see it's snapped I've snapped If you called I'm sorry I didn't pick up again I couldn't even tell you Where my phone is Or the last time that I saw it All I know is that it's been missing I don't want it What's the point of taking calls when I'm falling What's the point of taking calls when I'm falling I'm falling I have men I have women Who think of me But I can never be The person to which they belong Because I'm not the stability they need I'm always changing The faces you see are few of many And when you think you have grasp of me I flip again Disappear and you hate me I can't keep bonds Bonds are breaking Soak me in acetone And you'll see Behind the paintings I can't keep bonds Bonds are breaking Soak me in acetone And you'll see Behind the paintings If you called I'm sorry I can't pick up If you called I'm sorry I can't pick up If you called I'm sorry I can't pick up If you called I'm sorry I can't pick up If you called I'm sorry I didn't pick up again I couldn't even tell you Where my phone is Or the last time that I saw it All I know is that it's been missing I don't want it What's the point of taking calls when I'm falling What's the point of taking calls when I'm falling I'm falling