PTSD

I can't help it but I think about the worse I was on the right track but then my life took a turn My mama say I'm blessed but lately I'm feeling cursed Lit a match to my field of dreams and watched that motherfucker burn Bearing the weight of world I done dropped to my knees Seem like don't nobody care if I was 6 feet deep I'm Paranoid thinking everybody's watching me It's me against the world I got PTSD Post traumatic stress I'm waking up in cold sweats Thinking bout life before I came face to face with death Lord open my eyes cuz it's hard to see Feel like I'm walking dead I got PTSD I'm traveling on that Green Mile I'm a dead man walking Ain't got nun to lose so you a dead man talking Lord my mind been driving me crazy Please show me a sign I been trynna patient I been a menace since a infant reaping havoc at the age of 2 Niggas tried get me sentenced I been repenting Lord tell me what I'm gone do Some say turn the other cheek but to me that mean run I ain't trynna hear that bullshit I'm trynna pick up the gun And blast let em feel my wrath It ain't no other way But I know if I spaz then I'm bound to catch a case Now you would think that my wounds would've healed But somehow I still feel like slanging that steel Handcuffs round my at wrist at the age of 10 that's when I lost my innocence Pops said these niggas give 2 shits that's when I start believing it Some many niggas rode my nuts when I was up But now that I'm fucked nobody's here that I can trust But my hunger is what made me a hustler Gotta get it by any means I'm a working mufker But Seem like in this day and time a young nigga need a OG Who gone catch you when you fall help you navigate these streets By any means I keep 'em choppin' I keep moving my feet Keep a peace cuz in these streets you gone sow what you reap Lately so many niggas been plotting on me I guess that's the reason that I got PTSD Man I need something to uplift my spirit I been struggling for so long man I need some endurance Fucking with a nigga like me I hope you got some insurance Cuz what goes through my mind I bet it's not the purest cuz I can't help it but I think about the worse I was on the right track but then my life took a turn My mama say I'm blessed but lately I'm feeling cursed Lit a match to my field of dreams and watched that motherfucker burn Bearing the weight of world I done dropped to my knees Seem like don't nobody care if I was 6 feet deep I'm Paranoid thinking everybody's watching me It's me against the world I got PTSD Post traumatic stress I'm waking up in cold sweats Thinking bout life before I came face to face with death Lord open my mind cuz it's hard to see Feel like I'm walking dead I got PTSD